I’ve been stuck for a while and sometimes you just don’t want to get unstuck. Sometimes you want to stay that way for a while and just…feel sticky. So things have been pretty sticky for me. Sticky and sad.
I have to be honest – breaking up is the worst feeling in the world. Being apart from someone you loved and imagined being with mentally, sprititually, physically, emotionally…it’s the worst feeling when it leaves you. I didn’t know it was possible to wake up crying. My heart goes out to people dealing with heartbreak. I hope none of my sisters ever go through it. Honestly. I can’t even fathom the issue of divorce – even the consideration hurts my heart.
Lately I’ve had the strongest desire for heaven, for peace, for real joy where not even the slightest concern or tear comes to your eye. I want to walk with God in person. It’s so hard to find someone who will always be there, who will be an actual hand to hold, arms to hug you…someone who will be what you’ve been waiting for on earth.
But for the moment, I’m unstuck and moving on. I still have hands and arms that can hug and need to be hugged. I’m still alive, so heaven’s just a little too out of my reach. I can go one more day at least. The next thing to do after that, I’m not so sure about. 
Hey Sweetie! I am so sorry!! I had no idea what was going on! I hope that you are doing ok. Breaking up is one of the hardest things to do. I know you are a strong woman and will pull through. If you need a sympathetic ear, I am always here for you! And just name the weekend and Christian and I would love to have you up here. A hug is always ready and waiting. Stay strong. Love you!
~Heather