Hope lives on
I was reading ”Bring the Rain” – a blog on the story of Audrey Caroline (it’s beautiful, please check it out) and wanted to share this to encourage you today. The words are from a grieving mother. The love God has for us comes through even in the questions, fears, and confusion. God is still with us …
http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/
The Lord walks beside me as He walked beside Moses, and He knows me by name. He loves me, and I love Him. I pushed my baby through the reeds and never saw her again. And yet, here I am, worshipping the God who allowed it.
I know. It appears to be an unbalanced courtship.
I want you to know that as I type these words I am sitting in Starbucks, crying my eyes out, begging God to move my fingers and convey where my heart is resting now. While I was sitting in church yesterday, I found a page of notes I had taken when I was reading the book “Experiencing the Depths of Jesus Christ” by Madame Guyon a few years ago, and I saw this quote.
“Love, then do what you please…” (St. Augustine)
I am not ashamed to say that I believe the Gospel is true. I believe that He died for me, that He knows the number of hairs on my head, and that He keeps my tears in a bottle. I believe there was a real man named Moses, and that the Lord really parted the waters. I believe in the scarred hands and feet. I believe in the providence of God, even when it feels contrary to what my heart desires.
I have seen the way my Audrey has brought people to the cross. I have seen the way she has impacted my own life, and the lives of people I may never meet. It doesn’t mean I don’t want her back, or that I never hurt or doubt. I do. Every single day.
Scripture says that the Lord Himself buried Moses, and to this day, nobody knows exactly where his body lies. We do not know what Moses said to God as he breathed his last breath, but we know that he fulfilled his purpose on this earth.
In his case, it was 120 years. In Audrey’s, it was less.
I have written more than I meant to, and if you have made it this far, I want to encourage you in your walk today. He has not abandoned us. He is the God of the River, the God of broken dreams and crushed spirits, the God of Moses, the God of you. He is trustworthy, and my prayer for you today is that you will press into Jesus as the words spill like broken perfume through the pain…
Love, then do what you please.
